Goodbye Primary...Hello ????

April 8, 2012

Last Easter, after performing at a Vietnamese Easter Mass, I made it to church and discovered I had been officially called to be the Primary Secretary. I was somewhat excited about receiving this calling, and I was definitely humbled by it. "What in the world????? I don't know anything about kids!!!" I also struggled with wondering what I did wrong with my previous calling. "I was just getting the hang of it! I had some really cool ideas for this year. I'm going to do a better job, be more organized, etc. Did I suck so bad that the had to take me out?" Yes, Negative Nancy was truly coming out. It took me a long time to process and get over those feelings. It took me a long time to finally feel like I belonged in Primary, to feel like I was getting the hang of being in there. And when I say a long time, I mean, about a month ago the feeling of "I think I might actually be getting the hang of this and belong in Primary," washed over me. Not a week or two later did I find out that I was being released from this calling. And finally, on Easter Sunday, I was officially extended the release. I fully expected to be told my next calling at the same time, but that didn't happen. I am officially without a calling.

Of course Negative Nancy  reared her ugly head again. "Why don't they want me? Why don't I have a new calling? Do I suck? What did I do wrong? I was just getting the hang of this!" The member of the bishopric who extended the release told me not to get too comfortable because I'll be put back to work soon. The Negative Nancy says that it's just something they say to everyone who doesn't have a calling.

So this coming Sunday I am curious to find out what will happen. The entire presidency was extended their release on Sunday though the other sisters have new callings already. I am curious to find out where we are all going next. I had a good time getting to know these sisters better, and I hope that they did too. I'm not really supposed to talk about this kind of thing until it becomes official, so I won't publish this post until things become official this coming Sunday. This will be my last Sunday to serve in Primary, and then it will be to show the new secretary the ropes. I might even just let her take over during Senior Primary and go sit in on Relief Society. It's been a long time since I've been in there.

April 15, 2012

Today I was officially released from the pulpit and served my last Sunday as Primary secretary. I was able to train the new secretary a little before she needed to take her sick little baby home. The new Primary president is one of my favorite people in the world and I know she'll do a great job. I'll miss working with the sisters I worked with in the Primary presidency for the past year. Hopefully our paths will cross again.

I'm not sure what my new calling will be, so I think I will wait to publish this post until I find that out. Next week I'll be able to sit in Sunday School with my husband and go to Relief Society for the first time  in a year. Before I was called to be the Primary secretary, I did not get to just sit and enjoy my meetings very much because I was tending to Lily. I felt like I spent most of my time in the hallway or in the Mother's Lounge.

We almost got asked to speak at Stake Conference in May, but both Robbie and I will be out of town. Bummer! Ha ha!

May 22, 2012

A few weeks ago I was asked to meet with a member of the bishopric to discuss my new calling. It's the Relief Society Chorister. Yay! Apparently they announced my name from the pulpit on Mother's Day, but I wasn't there. This past Sunday was the first Sunday I was able to serve in my new calling, and it was also the first time I attended Relief Society in over a year. It was weird. It feels like it was longer than that since I spent so much of Lily's first year of life in the mother's lounge nursing her during Relief Society.