Saturday, December 8, 2012


I'm not sure if I have mentioned it on the blog or not, but I am pregnant with baby #2. I think I finally officially announced it on Facebook, but I don't remember when. It was sometime after 20 weeks. I am just over 35 weeks now.

I don't know if this baby is a boy or girl. In fact, I haven't had an ultrasound at all. It's not really my preference. It's just how things have worked (or not) out so far. I have no intuition about the sex of the baby. Robbie is sure it's a boy. We'll see in 5-7 weeks.

I've had a lot of worries this pregnancy about life in general, so I haven't really been able to enjoy my pregnancy as much as I would have hoped. I hoped I would take more belly pictures, but old habits die hard. I've never been good at taking pictures, and well, that hasn't changed.

I've really been lamenting the fact that I will have to take a break from doula work. I mean, I have moped and cried about it. I love being a doula. I'm just a little bit insane because I am planning to meet with a mama who is due on Christmas Day. That's just 15 days before me. But anyone who has been pregnant before knows that is a LONG 15 days! The beauty of this one is she is planning to deliver at the hospital that is super close to my apartment. We'll see if she likes me!

I am practicing the Hypnobabies material for this birth. If anything, it makes me sleep very well. I observed a Hypnobabies course earlier this year, and what would you know? I got pregnant.

I've been asked if I will have a doula. The answer is yes. She is the first one to respond to me when I reached out to the doula community back when I was just starting out. She ran my first 5K with me and she's just been an all around great friend. I picked her as my doula long before I even thought about getting pregnant again.

Tomorrow a couple of my doula friends are hosting a Mother Blessing Ceremony for me. I am really looking forward to it, and it really means a lot to me that they care enough about me to do that.

I have another friend from church who wants to throw me a shower in a few weeks. I think it's really sweet of her to think about me. She's one of those people I admire from afar but don't really have the courage to ask, "Hey! Wanna be my friend? I think you are cool." Because I do that sometimes. There have been a few people that I have told them I am in their fan club and am trying to weasel my way into their group. It kinda worked, but I have had several of my friends move away. It's been a lot harder on me than I would care to admit. I haven't really had the courage to reach out to make new friends. I just sit and admire people from afar.